i duno why im here typing i dont know why all of a sudden it just hit me to do this, but i dont wana bring all my troubles to my friends so i have to put them somewhere, and where better than an online journal that no one reads? well im completly freaked out about school, and the more and more i think about it. there is nothing to do with the social aspect, well maybe a little bit, and that bit being me, can i control my self enough to sit down and study for the big test? can i stop drinking so i dont get alchol poisioning and go to the hospital...? i feel thats not the main issue. but then i ask my self what is? and after feeling sorry and very scared i think that it has something to do with the academics, not the actual note taking or reading aspect but rather buying of books and "gear" for class like binders spirals and other shiat. but that seems like such small un-important things...if thats true then why am i so worried about it? why does it bother me to the point of altering my current mood? if it can do that then its no some miniscual thing its gotta go deeper. but im no shrink and i dont know how or why it goes deeper or how to find out what the "deeper stuff" is i can only guess and try to do things that make me feel better. thats all i can think of right now...so i am reaching out asking for help from someone its not a huge issue but if anyone has any college insight for me that would be great...but im not expecting much because no one reads these things so cheers have a good year and ill check all this stuff when i set my puter up at cu...wish me the best of luck and hope i dont phuck up to much...
-orng3